It’s time you packed up your bags and every emotion that belongs to you and your shameless self. It’s high time your sneaky ways of creeping into my mind failed.
All of your lies are useless to me now, because I have found something better. I have found the one person that will always be with me and Love me unconditionally. Your deceiving words mean nothing to me now. They are but lying vanities.
You kept telling me that I was all alone in this cold dark world. With no one to confide in, no one to hold me when I falter and no one to hug away the ever present sadness.
You kept on filling me with the thought that everyone else out there has the so called “besties” that are always there to share each other’s moments.
All of my constant despair and my shaky mood swings were caused by you. My pillow would soak wet often in the dark cold night, with the tears that could no longer hold themselves in, leaving every inch within me bare of any life.
I have realised that you are the lonely one here. You are just so desperate for attention to the point of meddling with my mind. Of which in case you had not noticed is personal space.
I’ve realised that the more I keep encouraging your presence in my mind, the more I allow myself to submit to you, making you stronger and stronger by the day.
The more I open myself up to endless thoughts of no use, the more I become vulnerable to you.
When a package comes down my address, with the label; “feelings of despair and a sense of no belonging”,
I have the right to choose not to receive it. Because as long as I know that I have not signed up for it, then I know that I do not have to accept it.
I will not slide my pen down signing to receive a package from you, that I am not willing to accept.
This day, I leave you there, on the door step. You can go wonder along to some other being. But this girl has no time for your sick lies.
And do not dare come back because from this moment on, your room will be assigned to Joy.
